Feel so sad. I feel so choked up with everything, like I can't control my life. There're tons of holiday homework and I haven't touched them, and there's way too little time. The thing is, I don't get anything at all during maths lessons. Like seriously nothing. I feel so dumb and I feel so sad for the teacher next year. I don't get bio too/. So the point is, what do I go to school for? I don't get it. I think my brain is rotting away big time. See, tuesday and thursdays there's caroling practice, monday there's band practically the whole day, friday there's CL, and tmr, damn tmr, there's the R&R day from 7am to 9pm. I can feel my heart telling me no, don't go, but shit, do I have a choice? I just don't want to face anything. And I totally forgot everything I learnt during the whole of the last school term. I am one bloody dumb kid.

Self deprecation. Shermaine, you were born to lose. So give up.