Hahah I so feel like singing now, man! ;D It's the christmas spirit coming on early, y'all! Haha. (: Time passes really really fast. December's just next week! And in barely a month, school will start. How sick is that ): Which means O levels! Shit. Okay I shall not think about yesterday, shall not worry on tomorrow, I'll just try to live today to the fullest! Well about the rooming, I guess I have to come to terms with reality sooner or later, Yuxin said we have to make the best out of whatever we get, even if it isn't something we wanted. Yep, guess I'll try my best.

Red, green, blue flashlights.


Band was really weird. Things are starting to turn funny. I guess it's really my fault huh. Like maybe I'm too mood swingy or whatever. I just feel so sad seeing how close y'all have grown. And how I'm always made to do stuff that I never even agreed to in the first place. Maybe I'm just being childish, but heck. Truth is, it sucks being in this position, have you ever thought about it? C'mon, give me a break. I'm sorry if I've done anything to offend you or whatever, really.

Y'know what, I don't even wanna go tmr. So all you can mange is an 'I don't know', that's all you can do to help me? Thanks alot, really. Man. I'm so stressed now I haven't made up my mind and I've gotta send the horn pictures like by tonight cause - shiatttttxzxz/. And none of them are picking up my calls. A breakdown's driving headway at me.

Tell me how.


I'm back! To the hectic life here. See, reality sucks, like to the max. /: Anyway the trip was pretty awesome! Like the slow pace of life and all. The weather in Cameron Highlands and Genting Highlands was damn shiok! Hahaha. Cameron Highlands was sorta nice, like scenic and beautiful, but the amazingly great number of houseflies totally marred it's beauty. They were everywhere, seriously everywhere, even though it was way cold and high up there. The flies were really really really gross. Eeyuck. ]: The theme park at Genting was awesome! Space Shot was super scary but the best roller coaster was Corkscrew. It was damn fun. :D I can't post any pictures now, even the Confi ones, cause my dad's a really difficult barrier to get through. I shall just post them when he's not around.

I am now officially way, way behind everyone in the completion of holiday homework.

OH AND HERE'S TO MY DEAR WORM PARTNER IN CRIME ;
HAPPY BELATED 15TH BIRTHDAY ACW! :D

I really hope you had a blessed birthday and I'm sorry I wasn't able to wish you on the day itself! There's always next year! Haha. Love you! :D

There's tuition tomorrow in the morning and sheesh, I haven't finished the homework. I am so dead. It's CL sunday this sunday. (This sentence sounds so funny.) I'm not doing anything and that is wonderful. I totally need a break from my sucky, super shitty acting. Hurhur. I love my bed, I miss my home. Yay. ;D


Confirmation was great! :D Pictures later, got my pops staring me down. /:


My right kidney is aching like hell. Tell me why.


Tomorrow, it will be. Tomorrow, marks the end. Or the beginning, either way. Shit. I hope I do wardening fine, like i don't trip over anyone's legs or I don't face any bastards who give the attitude face when I hand the thing to them. Now I'm getting really really really scared. Maybe I should just keep it all to myself. I guess it's good to believe and just get tomorrow over and done with. Anyway I'll be away from the 17th to the 21st of November in Genting. But I'm really not excited at all. And I feel bad cause Christine's like all up and about wanting to pack and leave immediately but I don't match her energy level. And daddy will be disappointed. Hahaha but anyway I was really happy a few nights ago due to something. (: It wasn't exactly a good or bad thing but at least it was something. Yay :D The first time I totally missed it but then the second time I took it out I saw it. Hahaha but the excitement has totally died down, sad. Allysa you cannot be sad! Haha what you did that day was totally cool, haha. Retard was soooo scared of us after that. Chicken backside! 8)

Give me something more;


Feel so sad. I feel so choked up with everything, like I can't control my life. There're tons of holiday homework and I haven't touched them, and there's way too little time. The thing is, I don't get anything at all during maths lessons. Like seriously nothing. I feel so dumb and I feel so sad for the teacher next year. I don't get bio too/. So the point is, what do I go to school for? I don't get it. I think my brain is rotting away big time. See, tuesday and thursdays there's caroling practice, monday there's band practically the whole day, friday there's CL, and tmr, damn tmr, there's the R&R day from 7am to 9pm. I can feel my heart telling me no, don't go, but shit, do I have a choice? I just don't want to face anything. And I totally forgot everything I learnt during the whole of the last school term. I am one bloody dumb kid.

Self deprecation. Shermaine, you were born to lose. So give up.