OMFG I AM E-M-B-A-R-R-A-S-S-E-D.

I sent ' Godma is taking us to Carlton Hotel to eat buffet' to who but Godma instead of Christine omgomgomg this sucks like shit I bet I sounded like some fool when she was reading that.

This has taught me to be in the right state of mind when doing things and not do things when my mind is not 100% functioning and focused.

Shiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatxz.


I'm so glad english is over. Today marked the day I wrote the lamest compo in my life, ever. Omg I seriously hope I pass because I was crapping something out about a fire and some shit. It sounded like some primary school crap, rahhhh. I can't believe I wrote something like that! It's the lamest and shittiest compo I've ever written, seriously. Weeeeell whatever it's over. :D

Dinner with Godma tmrw (: Yay hope it'll be cool. THERE'S BOF TMRW! Must watch. Ahh grandparents coming over for 2 weeks. Goodbye, bedroom ): I'll have to dig a hole in the ground to sleep.


I NEED TO WAKE UP.


Yay I finally got a new phone and a new wallet, so Imma happy girl now. :D Well kinda, with issues besides studies. Ohmyxyz it sucks to just think about o levels. Gives you the shudders head to toe. Cause I'm not even prepared for Prelims. 3 weeks, my dears, 3 weeks down the road. Kay maybe I need control. ! I wanna finish my Maths school papers ! If not it'll just keep piling up like ZZzzzzzz.

Right, so I forgot to buy my dinner and I'm kinda food-less now. Sooooo, I'll have to settle for cup noodles again. Poor me. But be satisfied, Shermaine, satisfied! People in Africa don't even have food scraps to eat.

Yes, I shall learn to treasure what I have. Okay yes on time it's almost 5, time for my dinner now. (:


Had Subway with J yesterday, I love the green chilli and the pickles (:

We must try that Hotdog Shop one day.

Righttttt so today,

I had Big Breakfast as brunch, we all love our sugar rushes don't we? (:

Rahhhh I must go for chinese tuition myself! In this awfully awesomezxz weather, so annoying! I like to sweat cause it keeps you slim but I don't like to sweat cause it's so uncomfortable and gross and smelly, so I like to sweat but I don't like to sweat, get it? Haha noooooooooooooo.

I want more turkey sausages/patties.

Cw we must work off our fats after O's!


I feel so choked up, so badly bruised.


Yeah, hurt, deep down inside. Maybe a lil on the outside too. Maybe I went overboard. But you didn't have to do that. & Now I'm hurting. & Maybe, just maybe, you're insensitive enough not to realise.


-


I came to a point of realization. A point of revelation. That I can never be good or meet up to expectations no matter how hard I try. Because there will always be her to overshadow me. She can play the piano, and I was useless, gave up at grade 2. She can do Math like it's a pastime, but I hate it. & I'm the one who influences her, who makes her bad. It's always my fault, right?



She's everything I'm not. & I will never be, no matter how hard I try.


Sometimes, tears don't solve the problem. It just makes it worse.


RAH RAH RASPUTIN.

I need some pills to keep myself level-headed. Cause I feel like I can do lots of crazy things RIGHT NOW and this is pertaining to the bizarre happenings of my lifeeeeeeee -

I think the spaghetti and the tom yam chicken from Seoul Garden yesterday is still currently churning in my stomach. Ohh ewwwww! xD Omgzzx I managed to crap out qn 4 of the geog prelim paper and I think that's all I'm gna do today. Shit, I'm so unproductive. But shit, I still have to do cheena cause it's due tmrw. RAhhhhh.


I love Nell's album. Awesome.

I really don't get it. Family is, after all, family. Why make things difficult for everyone? Why implicate the entire family line? Why, when it all originated from you, and you alone? Sometimes, I really don't get how adults do things. Try to glam up the situation, try to gloss it over so everything seems okay. From the outside. I didn't expect, not at all. It came as a shock. Yeah, close-knit we're not at all, but still, I thought there would be some form of compromise going on. Is there anything really so unforgivable? He is, after all, your father, who raised you from young, who clothed you, who provided you with everything you needed. And to do this to him now? Makes no sense. Stop being such a selfish idiot. Don't act like you own the world. Don't just throw your parents out as and when you like. They're no toy of yours. They took care of your children, for goodness sake. And now you don't need them, you're really just gonna throw them out of the house? It's damn ridiculous. I really hope I never become like that. Because no matter how much I hate my parents now, no matter how annoyed I am with them, they are still my parents. They gave me a life no other parents could give me. And I am grateful. I'm praying that when I'm older, I'll still be grateful. I pray all this will tide over in time to come. Please God, please. Please don't make them feel unwanted. Please watch over them.

I know I'm not perfect. I know I'm in no position to voice my views. But I'm just saying -


Screw Bio SPA and A. Maths mock. I'm gonna flunk both. Rahh.

Flustered.

Anyway, after the mock paper, had cheese fries to soothe my frazzled nerves that were oh-so-bedazzled (haha cool not) by the a maths paper. Mia had some weird mutton obsession. Crazy girl. [: Feeling really not-in-the-mood now cause of the way I screwed the two things today. I mean, how dumb can I get?! I think I have tofu for brains. Sighzxzxz.

Doushite;


A teeny wee bit hurt.

Just gonna keep this in for awhile.

Please don't do this to me anymore.