Haha know what, I feel so childish now, saying all of that. But I guess I'm okay now! Thanks Livia, haha. Whoa luckily you dind't slam me or something! But it's okay la, in the end. Somehow everything WILL work out ;D And I will be a happy person! Even for fridays and saturdays which I've come to dread. And sorry to the horn section as well! I was being such an ass on thursday. /: Frankly speaking, I don't deserve to be the SL cause I think I'm too emotionally-driven, like, shit man! I don't wanna be like that too. I just hope I'm improving each time, and I'll try my best. Oh yeah, I really really enjoyed myself on the last day of school in class! I learned how to play Bridge and I think I'm better at Taiti too! Haha yay. (: I love the class clique too. :D I just hope that next year will be as good (with lesser trials and tribulations please), and that we'll strive hard together for anything we wanna achieve! :D

Danielle Lim Yi Han, where on earth are you? Imy! And the times we were best friends in P4. I think it was like, one of the bestest years of my primary school life. Hope you're doing fine and hope to see you somewhere on the face of this earth again! (:


I don't wanna go to Japan anymore. Band drains out the lives of all. I felt kinda really disappointed today, like y'know I had to bloody hell face reality. I felt damn bad to Asha but then what can I do? I mean like, I don't even know her, she doesn't even know me, I'm chinese and she's not, she's younger, she's quiet, yeah I just don't know her! There's gonna be like communication problem, how'd you expect me to sit with her on the bloody bus and even SLEEP with her? Like fine la, I know surely someone has to sacrifice, but I'm having a hard time coming to terms with the fact that I have to be the one who has to do that. Shit la. And while everyone will be enjoying their asses off, I would be the only one wishing to come home. And all my wonderful thoughts, like doing way funner stuff with E and J have totally disappeared. Fuck. Fuck band, fuck japan, fuck life. And fuck beetles. Shit. Just thinking about beetles and wasps can make me shiver. HELLO DISGUSTING BEETLE(S), WHY MUST YOU COME AND DISRUPT MY PERFECTLY PEACEFUL LIFE EVERY SINGLE NIGHT, AND WHY MUST YOU LOOK SO INTIMIDATING AND MAKE THAT FREAKY CLACKING SOUND WHEN YOU WALK. WHY DO YOU LOOK SO METALLIC AND NICE WHEN ACTUALLY YOU'RE JUST WAITING TO DIE IN MY ROOM. WHY DO YOU NOT STOP CRAWLING WHEN I TRY TO KILL YOU. WHY DO YOU COME AND DISTURB ME, YOU SCARY THING. Shit man. Beetles and wasps suck to the core.

Currently, my life cannot be considered life in its actual meaning.


Imma sad kid.





It was hell.


Yesterday was cool. (: And I realised that my cousin was at T3 too! But I didn't see her, haha. It was cool, but I was having an I-look-pretty-ugly day, so the pictures were kinda bad. [Note the irony - pretty:ugly] But, still it's the memories that matter! ;D

Some things are bound to change. And I'm tryna accept it, I think everyone around me's trying really hard too. Oh, really good news, AMIRAH CHANG's gonna get promoted! Thank goodness! All of us must work our asses off next year okay! I erally wonder what I go to school for, it is an absolute waste of time, effort and money! I mean shouldn't they make the holidays like earlier if they've nothing to entertain us with? Tsk. Shizz. It's the Archdiocesan Youth day tmr. 1145 to 1030! It's a full day event, and I'm feeling apprehensive, like I always feel for all events. Shit. November 15, how should I put it, a milestone in my life? I'm scared, anyone wanna show me the way/.

I think Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown make a good pair. :B All the best for those taking their O's and A's in a while. :D You know you can do it! To Rena and Yuxin, we miss y'all okay! Can't wait for when the O's end! ;D

If I should die before I wake.


Omg I'm super duper shocked, I just saw 2 neighbours with their boyfrienzzxzxz, in the SAME lrt train! It was so awkward! Darn, is this like the hook-up peroid of the year? It's okay to just see one pair of lovebirds la, but then two in the same train? My heart can't take it, I swear!

Okay haha, I'm over it! (8

I just realised that my dad worked really hard to reach where he is today, and that it isn't easy to be an adult! Now I feel kinda awed by my parents. Believe it or not, my dad was actually damn pai kia when he was young, like those cool dudes with the heck-care attitude, he just enjoyed playing the guitar, hanging out with his friends and going for camps! Hahah but he got serious after getting married. And my mum is hardcore! She seriously does a great job managing the whole of the house, even when we mess it up like shit. Wellos. I love my parents, I guess. (:

Hahah yay, I'm gonna T3 tmr aft band with Est and J! Est, don't be sad okay! You still have us :D

Tag replies -
Lizzi: Haha I always feel damn smelly after school! Besides, I was having *wink* on that day!
Hawhaw ;D
Huiying: Haha will asap! I really wanna finish watching this one (:
Vicks: Haha told you it was an on-the-spot kinda rush! And i'ts relieving btw :D


There's a little creepy house
In a little creepy placeLittle creepy town
In a little creepy world
Little creepy girlWith her little creepy face
Saying funny things that you have never heard

Do you know what it's all about
Are you brave enough to figure out
Know that you could set your world on fire
If you are strong enough to leave your doubts

Feel it
Breathe it
Believe it
And you'll be walking on air
Go try
Go fly
So high
And you'll be walking on air
You feel this unless you kill me
Go onA
nd you're forgiven
I knew thatI could feel that
I feel likeI am walking on air

Walking on air - Kerli


I'm tired.

Felt so smelly during CL, cause I didn't bathe! And I finished my dinner, minus 3 fishballs in 10 minutes. Whoa, backache now, why uh. I didn't do nothing! /: Open house tmr, major shizz. I hope the band doesn't screw up the 15 minutes, even though it's like nothing. I'll try to give my best, the whole horn section must do so! Yay, section breakfast in the morning, remember guys, 7 AM at PP Macs! ;D Hahah JJ got me into the whole hotcake craze manxzxz.

I just realised something. Wanna know? Okay.

I get goosebumps when
-I step into the shower and turn on the faucet
-I sneeze
-I'm sick or something
-NOT when I am cold.

Man, I am so weird. Hurhur.

Okay, I shall stop the weirdness (:


This is so annoying. I can't reply tags on my tagboard, so I've decided to reply them here. (: Got my results, got nothing to say about it. Oh yeah, went to Bugis with J1, J2, J3, and Esther bird for the J^3SE reunion! Ahh, the good 'ole times. (: But it was really terrible at the beginning. I met Jerine at 12 plus, then we decided to go to BHG the sports section to look for my bag, and I was habing killer cramps all the way from home, in the train and during the outing. Wah sai man, really felt like shit. Yeah so I was like dying, then we wanted to meet Jz, Jo and Est at BHG, but we didn't say so, so Jz was like meet at the Converse/Levi section. And we waited at BHG, but they waited at the same section IN Bugis Junction. Hahaha, man, how retarded can we get. Yeah so after that we decided to meet at the Fountain, so as we were waiting, I almost decomposed on the spot, it felt like damn long, then they finally came, and I felt so dizzy, I felt like vomitting so badly, I couldn't hear and see properly, it was damn scary. And they told me that my face looked damn pale and I was like oh shit. So haha Jerine and Est went to get Panadol for me, while Jz and Jo shielded me from embarassing stares. Thanks friends! Love y'all. (: Felt much better after that, Panadol works wonders! First time taking it, I could have had an allergic reaction!


ANYWAY. Reading the IT girl novels now, haha damn scandalous man! But it's cool. Oh shizz, and there are like 1 hour long chinese lessons everyday with that shitty, unable-to-teach teacher, besides JR, I think the rest is hell luh, there's also shitty chinese homework to do, like how shitty is school. /:

I want my Hot Shot dose noooow! Really awesome eye candies, serious serious. :D


I am so angry now I feel the fumes coming.

%^&&)Y&*#$%#$$%$%&^&((($ %$^%#

Bloody bloody blaaaardy hell my tagboard's so screwed it looks so ugly the way I see it there is something wrong I've got rashes on my leg it's damn itchy I wanna scratch but it's gonna leave freaking ugly scars I want to get of the house but I'm trapped in this empty hole with a super annoying mother who makes me copy english and chinese DAILY which is plain torture I wanna go out and shop and listen to no more shit from my parents the computer's so screwed like everything's so wrong.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH/.

Why-.


Just felt like being here. Was watching some of Jay Chou's MVs, kinda made me cry cause the plot's always good. Yeah, and was thinking bout some of the House Bunny soundtracks cause they sounded quite good, maybe will go search for some later on. Somehow idk, but life's just lost that kinda meaning, see? I'm not trying to be melancholic or what, but this is how I really feel. It's like the end of the year, and exams are all over and yadayada, but now it's just listlessness, I have no idea why. It's like studying has taken up 100% of my time, so now cause I don't needa anymore, there's nothing to do. Actually, I kinda miss J^3SE, the times that we had, the simple pleasures we shared, and how we used to laugh at alot of things. How innocent. :D I mean, we can still keep those memories, but we are no more what we used to be. Everybody's changed, but we can only hope for the best, right? All the best to Jerine, Jolene, Jin Zaw and Esther in the future, just felt like saying this, in case I don't ever get the chance to talk to y'all properly anymore. Love y'all okay! I still do. :D

Why lead the high life?


I don't like it at all, not a single bit. It feels like shit being stuck in the middle like that. I hate the feeling, y'know? And I feel so fcking self-conscious I feel so much like shit just having my presence there. Sorry Lizzi, I know I didn't do a good job and yeah I got loads to improve on, really sorry cause I'm not sure if I even made the correct decision by joining. I can't act for nuts, see. I think I'm bringing the whole thing down, so much so that everytime I have a part to play, the whole thing sucks.


I AM SUCH A SUPERFICIAL BEING/FREAK.


So, the exams are over, like PHEW -/ Went to watch The House Bunny with Cherms, Dhiah, and Nana. Abit sad luh, the turnout. Jj and Mushroom were supposed to go too! But well, next time, next time. Hahah, ate hotcakes for the first time in my LIFE today! See how noob I am, hahaha. Then after the movie went to walk ard Daiso with CW, then we decided to head to Bishan Library to find a place to sit without having to buy anything, hahahah. Oh yeah, first went to check out Jj's bag, wasn't really helpful but we did try though! :D AYE GIRL THIS IS FOR YOU STOP BROODING OVER THAT QISIREN PERSON CAUSE HE DOESN'T DESERVE YOU! (: Yay. Hahaah yeah so cw did a 'lil chinese at the library while I kinda ppl-watched and tried to read. Hurhur. I couldn't stop yawning, shizz. :O Must be the exam stress, see. :D There's CLCLCLCLCLCL later. Idk, but I'm kinda tired out, again I'm losing the drive to serve God, howhowhowhowhow. And Confirmation's coming and I'm barely there. Shitttttt, how. I must say I kinda didn't really enjoy Feast Day, felt it was kinda a letdown.

I was desperate to use the computer but now I don't feel so anymore. AIYOH/.

&Vanilla puff (: