Hokay pokay, so like my life's in the dumps now? I've got 24/7 all round the clock nagging, my dear mummy telling me over and over again that if I don't study I'll fail all my tests, if I don't practise Chinese my results will suck, if I don't basically stare at a book a.k.a study, my life will be screwed. I detest studying, I mean like what's the point? Besides earning big bucks when I grow old. Studying is practical cause it's a straight path (almost) to success, but can't success be achieved in like some other way? You can have the wits and still make it right. Life is getting seriously confusing. And I hate getting tangled up in all this shit. MAN. I think there's like a trend for me at least, like sec1 and sec3's meant to suck, and sec2 and sec4's the stable years. But I don't like it. I don't like living my life not knowing wht to expect tomorrow, or what to expect in a week. I wna be in control of my own life. Okay, on second thought, maybe not, I think I should let God take control of my life. But why's things spiralling out of control even more after confi camp? Have I not experienced God yet, at all? What am I doing with my life? Man, I need advice. I haven't felt so lost in a long time. I think I've never felt THIS lost before. Never, and so this is scaring me. Can the world stop for a moment? I need time to think, clear my thoughts, decide what I should do.


Man, I need help. Anyone tell me, what should I do? Too much's going down.