Sometimes it feels really weird. It's as if the world has to entertain you and your moodswings. You and your acting. Sometimes I feel so self-conscious cause everything's so different. Sometimes I feel that I'm not good enough. Sometimes I wish I wasn't here. Like maybe if we could turn back time. I would I have an entirely different decision. And I'd be feeling different/indifferent. Sometimes I want the world to stop spinning just for a moment so I can recuperate and think about what the toot I'm doing with my life. But all that just won't never happen.